Hey… it’s Anna.
So it’s been a busy weekend.
Apparently it’s graduation weekend where I work which means suddenly EVERYTHING needs to be cleaned.
Extra cleaned.
Super cleaned.
“Let’s pretend nobody has lived here all year” cleaned.
And honestly?
My body has definitely been feeling it.
Between work and my body… it’s been a lot
I’ve been dealing with:
- the usual aches and pains
- my cycle
- exhaustion
- and apparently now… gas pains
Because clearly my body said:
- “You know what would make this week more exciting? Stomach drama.”
And listen… gas pain is disrespectful
Nobody warned me gas pain could move around like a tiny angry ghost trapped in your abdomen.
One minute it’s on the left.
Next minute it’s in your back.
Then suddenly it’s under your ribs acting like it pays rent there.
And Google of course had me out here trying all kinds of weird positions.
Why did one position basically have me folded like luggage?
For NOTHING
Thankfully my heating pad saved me
That heating pad deserves employee of the month honestly.
Because after about three days of these gas pains moving around my abdomen causing confusion and betrayal…
I finally put the heating pad on my stomach.
And thank God…
Relief.
Actual relief.
Because once the gas started finally passing?
Every little toot felt like freedom
And honestly I’ve never been more grateful to fart in my life.
Chronic pain really changes your standards
At this point happiness is:
- manageable pain
- a functioning heating pad
- passing gas successfully
- and not crying during a work shift
The bar is low but we move
Financial stress has also been stressing me out
Because life apparently believes in multitasking problems.
As I mentioned before…
I’m working on something that could potentially change my circumstances in a major way.
Like:
- more job opportunities
- more freedom
- less physically demanding work hopefully
- more choices for my future
And honestly?
That’s something I’ve wanted for a very long time.
But opportunities cost money too
And THAT is the stressful part.
Because while this opportunity could genuinely help change my life…
It also comes with hefty financial commitments.
And honestly?
The timing is rough.
Because I already had:
- bills
- responsibilities
- helping my parents
- medical expenses
- regular survival mode nonsense
So adding another major payment commitment feels scary.
Necessary.
But scary.
My brain has been doing financial gymnastics lately
Trying to calculate:
- bills
- due dates
- upcoming payments
- work hours
- future expenses
All while waiting for my paycheck to arrive.
And whew…
That kind of stress is exhausting mentally.
But I couldn’t let this opportunity pass me by
That’s the thing.
Sometimes life gives you opportunities while you’re already drowning a little financially.
And you either:
- take the risk
- or stay stuck forever wondering “what if”
And honestly?
I don’t want to stay stuck anymore.
So I’m taking the leap of faith and praying my little budget survives the experience
Work itself wasn’t too bad today though
Thankfully I wasn’t working alone.
Which immediately makes life feel 73% less offensive.
The lounge and study areas are pretty clean right now because school isn’t fully in session.
So there wasn’t:
- much sweeping
- much mopping
- much trash
Mostly just the usual student behavior:
- leaving trash everywhere
- being allergic to wiping tables
- acting confused by garbage bins existing
You know… the classics.
Honestly the students fascinate me sometimes
Because HOW do you spill something directly beside a garbage can and still leave it there?
Is wiping a table physically painful for them?
Are paper towels emotionally triggering?
Questions I continue to have daily
I did pick up some extra work though
And honestly?
Thank God for that.
Because some of the graduation attendees stayed in rooms here.
Which means:
- rooms need cleaning
- linens need washing
- towels need laundering
Extra work.
Extra physical strain probably.
BUT…
Extra money too.
And right now?
I genuinely need it.
Especially because I’m trying to help my parents
I was actually in the process of sending my parents food items back home.
And for a minute there I honestly thought I might have to cancel it because I felt stretched too thin financially.
And that broke my heart a little.
Because helping them matters to me deeply.
But thankfully the extra work changed that
Now I can use the extra money to cover the shipping costs.
And honestly?
That made me feel really proud.
Because sending those food items will help my parents SO much.
Especially with groceries.
And groceries are expensive everywhere now
So if I can send enough food items to help reduce what they need to buy for the rest of the year?
That means something to me.
A lot actually.
Even if it’s by sea freight and takes a while to get there.
The point is:
- they’ll have support
- they’ll worry less
- and I’ll feel a little more at peace knowing I helped
I think that’s what keeps me going honestly
Even through:
- pain
- exhaustion
- stress
- anxiety
- financial pressure
Knowing I can still help the people I love gives me purpose.
Even on the hard days.
From someone tired but still hopeful
This weekend has been:
- exhausting
- stressful
- painful
- emotional
- slightly gassy
But somehow…
I’m still hopeful.
Because even though life feels heavy sometimes…
I can still see little glimpses of progress.
And right now?
That’s enough to keep me moving forward.
I hope you guys are having a really good weekend.
And I truly wish you:
- a kind week
- a gentle week
- a peaceful week
- and hopefully a less stressful one than mine
Alright lovelies…
I’m off to sit quietly with my heating pad and continue appreciating modern medicine and successful gas relief
I’ll keep writing for you guys 💋
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